Poem collection 3

Shadows lay down

in the landscape

so the nature of God 

may emerge.

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A shadow gives depth

and reveal what is hidden.

It is not the dark side of form.

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Tears are tokens

of souls glittering
as they mirror the Lord.

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We do not live now

to be eternal thereafter.

Now and eternity 

are inseparable.

God's worlds are many, 

yet one.

Our world is part 

of paradise.

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Love is so patience 

it can only be in infinity
and it is so great 

it can only fit into endlessness.

Nothing at earth is great. No mountain,
but the love between Gods creatures.
When experiencing love

all seems great.

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We develop spiritually
like a seed with yearning
to reach through the soil
to air, warmth, and light,

because we suffer
from lack of freedom,
love, and wisdom,
feeling trapped, nearly dead,

seeking answers.

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Why are you hiding

from Me out there?

If you forget yourself

you are hidden in Me.

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Our divine yearning is the strongest,
but it is overshadowed by physical desires

and the vain ego hampers its unfoldment.

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The art of living

is to remove the veils

of the mind,

help others remove the same

and express what they conceal.

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I had to heal my heart

to heal others.
No longer stop the blood
from running 
so it could remove the poison

in my vessels.

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It must be Jesus 

behind the surprising vision
of my father looking 

deeply interested in me.

When the vision turned

as it receded

Jesus was revealed

and hurried after it.

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Those who resist God say
they do not take orders 

from anyone,
but God does not command us.

He gave us free will.

He guides us 

and our true will is His will.

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Some people reject God,
claiming He permits evil,
yet it is because He does not

approve of evil
He casts light upon it 

so we can reject it.

God warns us 

about sin and hell
time and time again
because He doesn't want 

to see us suffer.  

God doesn't send

people to hell.
People descend 

by the weight

of their guilt.

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If I turn the bottom of the pot 

toward God's light,
what has hardened within softens

so I can remove it.

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While my body stands on earth

I ascend into the sky

where I understand 

we are the same spirit.

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The soul moves up and down

in matter like a screw

without the limitations of a head.

When I am down I am twisted.

If I screw myself up too much,

I spin.

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If God did not put a burden

upon your shoulders

you would be too carefree

to descend into the depths.

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I only remember you

when you are in my thoughts.

I only understand you
when I'm not against you.

I am only close to you

when the thoughts has fallen

from these trees

and the vase has cracked.

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I forget who I am
when you are not here.

Disappearing into the now
with no future in sight.

The past melts now

with no belts on.

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If I condemn something,

it has caught me.

If I accept that I contain it, 

I am beyond it.

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People dislike the victim role,
so they complain.

They don't think they deserve 

what happens to them, 

but how can they know?

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We become upset

when we fear

that our imaginings

are real,

so do not get upset 

when someone else is.

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Bad behaviour is insignificant.

Do not let yourself be distracted

while it quiver like dew

as the sun evaporates it.

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To die is:

- a journey to the Kingdom 

at the center.

- like sparrows in shelter

when the snow has fallen.

- to hew with an axe

a forest without diameter.

- an extinguished thirst.

- the mountaintop severed.

- a rending of the veil.

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I am not in this world,

but where angels belong.

Where bells rings.

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Trees surround me,

branches embrace me

and Spirit kisses me.

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Within me there is an earthquake.

It rumbles. I fly as usual through heaven

where God embraces me like a shell.

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Unlucky in love is the one 

who meets those

who mistake it for a game

and either cheat to win

or are not afraid to lose.

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The ego is the Self

inside out.

It is either the ego

without love

or love without the ego.

Heaven and hell

is to love or not to love.

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The earth is bombed and I burn.

The dark clouds flash.
Pale pink flowers wither
while small yellow ones sink
into the soil.

I stand on the field 

in the storm wind.

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I am going home
where no one is driving.
Through woods, fields,
deserts, mountains and seas.

Nobody can see me walking.

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The three streaks of light

on the snow points towards

the afterlight in the sky.

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She is a child of the night
where she hears the bird sing
in lucid peace.

She sings in the day
with clear voice
peace into her soul.

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When my arms were free
to do as they pleased,
they threw themselves
around Jesus.

His long, ash-blonde hair, 

shimmered with sparks 

from heaven.
The scent was a mix of

vanilla and human.

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So sad the answer became

when no one asked for it.

No one to enlighten

when no one aflame

ignited it with a question.

Questions you ask 

is like arrows you shoot.
The more precise the phrasing, 

the straighter it flies.
The more riveted it is, 

the better the head will hit.
The stronger your desire 

to know the answer is,
the more power the arrow has to hit it.

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I want to make a lovely
light of death;

a dark stroke
in a mausoleum,

change the colours of roam 

to those of my body in storm.

I regret in the grey dawn
of humbleness;

The changes of clothes;
My death row.

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If I had stood on the threshold of death
I would have tipped over by the sight
of the black void

so I only watched with the tip
of my shiny, black shoes
close to the doorstep,

but when my heart and mind got heavy
I fell over the edge head first.

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Can one dive from mountains

and trust the instinct for self-preservation

and the discernment of the warm air?

Can one be cleansed by diamonds

cutting one to shreds,

or drops lashing one to self preservation?

Can a man without flesh

eat corpses splaying their legs

with pointed elbows?

Will years of tears

form veins of salt?

Will you breed a horse for me?

A gender as beautiful as a diagram

for performance art.

I do not breed flesh, I breed horses.

They feed on angel-drops and cumin

and toss fat into an open tear tank

for the mute with no words in their throat.

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Jesus said to me:

Listen to the voice 

inside you whispering; 

let yourself out there
where I can be found 

in all living,
where you belong, 

in My heart.

I will nourish you
spoon for spoon.

Cold little you
I will take into
my great warm heart.

You reflect me and see me
as nobody else does.

I miss you.

I wander from house to house,
but I can't find an opening.
How can I love those who are full?

Suffering is a frame for My love,
for the sake of wisdom.
Love honours you that way.

I will wander here for eternity
​until I have collected everybody
into my heart.

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Jesus:

My hope for you

is the same as for the dead;

Rise from the grave!

Spread my wisdom

and speak to me in private.

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Jesus:

I don't care about your flaws.
I care about you!

You come to me,
casting aside one by one
the things in the way.

You are not going to hell or earth again.

You are coming to the warmth
I wrap around you.

In the light
I see you exemplary.

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Jesus doesn't regard
my weaknesses

as a part of me,
but something

I need to deal with
and overcome.

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Everyone stands for the good

and there are two ways to fight for it;

by bringing forth the good

or or by fighting the evil.

The latter is like striking the air

with your arms at night.

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The greatness of Gods love

is so mighty;

He gives me only 

drops of honey.

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We grow and shine like dandelion, green
and are weighed down by brown leaves
nagging in the autumn of the world.

The leaves among us aren't comforting,
but knowing we are the survivors is.

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Love each other!
That's all life is about.
And know God
to know how!

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You don't have to hide
what is the matter
or let it hinder you.

There is only one way;
The one between you and God.

Surely God then wants to help
clear the way between you.

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We are not lazy people,

but spirits yearning to soar

and dance with joy,

yet weighed down

by the physical.

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I kneel down
and close my eyes.
Look for His face.
It melts into mine

As through
a mirror; His eyes
I see myself,
the lies.

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If the love from humans didn't fail
I never yearned for the divine.

So I should stop complaining
about others shortcomings.
The Absolute has me.

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When we are free we can choose
and choose the good.

When we are unfree we can only protest
against evil or be its slave.

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You strange beautiful cauliflower-tree,

sneaking along the clouds

on your way to God

instead of going straight to Him.

Can't you stay here amongst those you love

instead of dragging them along with you?

You are on earth only once before returning

to your home with windows without curtains.

You have not yet forgotten what it was like 

to be a frightened cat in a tree

and knee-deep in mud, but let go of that.

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I did not come into the world

to achieve as much as possible,

but to attune myself 

as much as possible to the divine.

If I achieve that, 

there is balance.

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I came to You naked, 

chalky-white in the dark.

You folded me into Your black cape
and carried me close to Your chest 

up to the light; Your mighty Kingdom.

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The holy is above
each person's head
for each of them to turn to 

and receive from.

To live up to the highest
is to feel the spirit of the hand
that God blesses the head with,
and to share the light of its wisdom
with those who wish to see by it.

The soul's need is to be heard.
The soul's need is to be touched

by the Holy Spirit, 

the most loving of hands.

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The fire burning in my breast
is light on the other side,
where I may enter when I am 

completely purified of the world.

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God exists.
It is the most obvious truth,
even though in every action I seek to prove it
because most people do not believe He exists,
yet still expect to see the highest good
from others.

God exists,
even though one should not expect
the slightest sign of it
when people live in ego-hell.

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You need not chase your soul,

like a butterfly.

You are it.

Behold how beautiful you are

before you let yourself go

with the quivering wind.

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To find the truth for yourself

is not to think out answers,

but questions God can answer

and to give God our mistaken view

so He can replace it.

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I stand behind everyone in the church,

weeping and am given to see

our shared white core.

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I am pining for trials, God.

Lay into me, lay me waste

so I can be Yours.

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The butterflies want to say good night.
Gods wants me back in His corset
and to lull me into His sleep
which is the death of me.

I want you back, son of God,
who punctured, dismembered
and broke me out of the prison
with loose screws.

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The grass is green and has flowers on
and the sky is low.
I want to go to the end of the world
where there is only sky.

There people has cheerful legs, deep minds
and encircle their hearts with aquamarine.

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The fly that flew to my foot
carried a message from heaven

on its wings.

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Nature child, you beautiful one,

who sees my wings

and spreads them over you.

Let there be peace between us

like the warm, quivering air

of the wind of freedom.

Can you see that it is no use 

trying to devour it?

It hovers there free

as your soul will one day be.

If you master your task well

you will unite with the All

and bring about what you desire 

from the world, my friend.

Learn from your friends 

about nail and saw.

Set your aim from the highest layer.

Eat your dreams and throw caution to the wind.

Prove to yourself you can do it.

Come at last with the wish for peace.

The capacity for love 

is your gift in the end,

my friend.

Your angel Gabriel.

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How can God occupy you
when you are full of yourself?

How can God offer His input
when you are lost in thought?

How can God find a loophole
for His wisdom pills to pass through your mask?

How can God fill you with the elixir of love
when you are full of bitter bile?

How can you recognize God within you
when you circle around yourself?

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Up in the garret in my castle
Jesus clearly appears.
I hear his voice completely.
I also feel him near.

His presence fills the air,
the butterflies dance in fulfilment.

Outside this empty room
which is narrow, but high under the roof

there is diamonds on the cornice.

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I ditch the black sack

and wander among 

juicy trees.

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I strengthen my faith
to attain pure perception—
the ground of great works,
and thus become open
to purgatory and baptism.

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God lives me.

Death exists not

for He is more for me

than I against Him

can ever be.

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I am joyful.

My cat opens its eyes 

and agrees with me with its gaze.

I float on four clouds.

They ar faithfulness, truthfulness,

justice and faith.

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Do not think you have the answer already.
No matter how similar a situation looks like
one you have experienced before,
it is still different, so keep your mind open.
You will get the answer when you need it.

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My poetry had stalled
when I was altered by a logarithm
that sent me to heaven like a magic spell
and poured down words like rain.

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I will go from knot to knot
and ask God to join my exploration,
and then describe the unravelling.

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See all the light
that falls in storm.
The young girls fingers
run through it all.

I can not measure

Gods threshold,

but I can bear it.
It is light as snowflakes.

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God is you and me
and His favourite 

is everybody
so surely He will supply
all our needs.

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If I compare myself with God
I'm nothing
for I cannot exist without Him.

If I connect with God
I'm everything
for there is no I to limit Him.  

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Ocean waves swept beneath my skin

and seeped out of my eyes.
We all feel the same water.

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The pain of feeling worthless
deepens my desire to serve Thee,
but if Your mercy didn't reach me
I would remain broken and useless.

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After he made love to me
I saw a light where Jesus
stood with open arms
with love so sweet;

White nectar
dripping down to me
accompanied by tears
so clear below.

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There is only God's will,
and everything unfolds according to His plan.

His divine light penetrates all creation
and sooner or later we will submit to it.

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God knows it is tough for us 

to endure this world
where the warmth and light 

emanating from the sun
doesn't hold the wisdom and love 

as the light above.

That is why He will recompense us 

to a great extent
when we finally are untied 

from this placement.

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It's only God and me.
Everything else is distractions,
but clues at the same time
of what God has in store for me.

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I came into the world 

to align myself with the divine
and express it to create balance.

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How can they be right about you
when their view is askew?

No wonder you look like a monster to them
when they look at you
with a magnifying glass.

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They sit at the top of a tree
and shouts down to me:
Just let us know if we can help thee.

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The cloud imploded
and shoved me
to the peak of the ocean.

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If you want to stand out
you will be exposed
like a drawer 
everyone can look inside.

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The devil debases me 
I sink down in darkness;
Eternal hell.

By full moon
he consumes me like a beast,
before I am able to express myself;
no noble virtue,
only despair.

He fills me up,
I sense the swelling,
not my essence.

His facial expressions are ghastly
meant to frighten me the most
and his behaviour deceitful
I am full of holes.

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Lea

Breaking the waves, we did,
went underground.
In the depths precious stones we found.

I cant live without you here.
I can't find you in the fog.

Can you see me hanging in the air
or hear me from heaven's sphere
and drag me down under the ocean?

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They stare at the devil 

as if it is sugar
and bade in its waters 

although it is muddy.

They come up like frogs 

speaking meaningless words
and jump on each other 

hoping it will bring peace.

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As we live, we lose
our health, job,
friends, family, control.

When everything is lost
only the heart remains
and we realise
nothing of value was ever lost.

We give away
the only thing we have left
and are free.

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Detachment

When God pulls me
to set me free,
it tears me apart.
Then comes bliss.

I need no support from outside.
I can dance freely on my path
in God who sustains me.

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Sincere prayers lie like orders
in the light of heaven.

Prayers that are relevant to heaven
are approved and carried out.

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The swan shines white
as the rising moon.

As it flies over the sea,
so I, too, stream to the sunlight.

I cannot find those like me,
yet God shines as if we all are.