Links to online books and articles about the Bahai faith

Introduction to the Bahai faith https://bahaiteachings.org/bahai-faith/

https://bahai-library.com/kelsey_bahai_answers

https://bahaiteachings.org/promises-prophets-will-return/

https://www.bahai.org/bahaullah/life-bahaullah/

Two important books by Bahaullah:

https://www.bahai.org/library/authoritative-texts/bahaullah/hidden-words/

https://www.bahai.org/library/authoritative-texts/bahaullah/kitab-i-iqan/8#539327387

The understanding of His words and the comprehension of the utterances of the Birds of Heaven are in no wise dependent upon human learning. They depend solely upon purity of heart, chastity of soul, and freedom of spirit. The heart must needs therefore be cleansed from the idle sayings of men, and sanctified from every earthly affection, so that it may discover the hidden meaning of divine inspiration, and become the treasury of the mysteries of divine knowledge. From Kitab-i-Iqan by Baha’u’llah

Three important books by Abdul Baha:

Paris talks and Some answered questions

https://www.gutenberg.org/files/19284/19284-pdf.pdf

https://bahai-library.com/abdul-baha_some_answered_questions-origin

https://reference.bahai.org/en/t/c/FWU/

Abdu'l-Bahá: Our aim is to free the foundations of the religion of God from the clouds of dogmas for the sun of reality is prevented from shining forth. We desire to dispel these black impenetrable fogs, so that the regions of the world may be flooded and illumined. May these foul clouds never return, may the rays of the sun of reality encircle all countries, for the sun has not beginning in time and no ending.

All books and articles of Abdul Baha and Bahaullah can be searched after here by writing their name in the search field https://bahai-library.com/author

Excerpts from the book Sex perfection

Here is the link if you want to read it: https://synergyexplorers.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/08/SexPerfectionVonUrban.pdf

The importance of similar wave length, wave frequency and wave amplitude in the body rays of two persons is one of the main reasons for sympathy and attractions. The pleasant feeling which comes from holding hands indicates that these two persons are attuned to each other.

An emotional immature man will only increase his wife's frigidity.

No one can attain the goal of sexual perfection unless he possesses or aquires certain qualities of character. Chief among these are unselfishness, honesty, reliability, emotional maturity witch means the development from taking to giving.

In the life of a child, masturbation, playing with genitals, is an important factor in developing sexuality, for masturbation helps the child to transfer his sensations from the primary, lust-regions of the mouth and anus, normal to the baby, to the sex organs where they eventually will be needed.

Pampering and over-indulgence can also restrict sexual development. As Oswald Schwarz says: A man who's mother has kept him too long to her self never, or only with the greatest difficulty, finds his way to other women. An overly strong attachment to the parents -between the boy and his mother, and between the girl and her father (Oedipus complex) usually keeps the children from marrying when they mature.

The unconcious in the young man drives him in search of the unattainable mother ideal continual changes of sweet-hearts. Such a man is predestined to unfaithfulness. And if he marries, impotence is often the result. In his wife he unconsciously sees his mother, to whom he must not have incest-wishes, and therefore he is inhibited by an unconscious feeling of guilt. The woman he loves he cannot possess and the woman he possesses he cannot love. Such conflict of soul can drive a man back to childish sex activity, some kind of perversion.

A third factor damaging to the child's sexual evolution is beating. This appeared in a young woman whose marriage was very unhappy because, unconsciously she longed to get from her husband the same beatings she had received as a child from her governess. Because of her masochistic fixation she had nor matured efficiently to react to any other sexual stimulus. She therefore remained sexual frigid. (A masochist is a person who is a sadist against himself).

The child is afraid of the beatings; they thwart the development of his self-esteem; nevertheless they produce feelings of pleasure which remain in his unconscious. A child accustomed to being beaten will finally behave in such a way as to provoke beatings. It is the unconscious craving for relaxation of bodily tension. One form of relaxation can be produced by beating. Many couples who have fist fights with each other are often afterwards relaxed and happy.

Education through threats also gives poor results. His character is endangered; malice and low cunning are aroused, for a child yields to force most reluctantly.

She becomes disturbed, helpless, a true reflection of her home athmosphere.

Unloving parents prevent the child from liberating himself from narcissism, from his love to himself.

Again, I repeat parents make an irreparable mistake when they fail to guide their children in their sex cravings. Without such guidance children become the victims of neurosis, frivolity or masturbation. Unguided girls are so overwhelmed by sexual energy that, in selecting a marriage partner they make blind choices, disregarding the mental and physical fitness of their partner. What they thought was love they later discover to be mere sensuousness or a craving for adventure.

Woman's entire nature consists of sexuality, in the larger sense.

The means towards the improvement of modern marriages: Sex education of the right kind, early marriage and a better, a more cultivated home life.

To a boy about masturbation: If a jug has too much milk in it, it has to overflow. You are at a time in your life in which an abundance of such little germ cells is produced in your testicles. You do not need to force them out, they will discharge them-selves during the night while you are sleeping. And if you force them out too often, by what we call masturbation, you give these celles which build these germ cells no rest or leisure. You drive them to ceaseless work and so exhaust them. A boy can torture himself with too frequent masturbation. Every handling of the sex organ drives out, from every cell of the body, radiation which, if they cannot flow out from the body, only serve to tense it more and more. This tension produces fear. You feel if as you were in a prison. You become terrified, not knowing what happened to you. Masturbation relaxes only the sex organs, while it tenses him more in his whole body.

The sex hormones stimulates the production of sperm cells in the testicles. The tension in these organs, induced by the increase in the number of the sperm cells, is a further source of the desire in boys to get rid of this local pressure through the discharge of their semen. Sex hormones can also be produced prematurely. This may happen, for instance, from too vivid sensations, startling impressions and great excitement, such as dramatic scenes between parents or early sexual experience.

To get rid of the tension in the whole body, a child is driven, more or less unconsciously, to seek bodily contact with adults, mostly with one of the parents. The love of such a child is based on the need for bodily relaxation. An infant starts to cry and becomes restless untill the mother fondles him, where upon he immediately calms down. A little devil of a child will become obident and happy if the mother takes him to bed with her, or even strokes his hair and body softly, thus relieving him of tension.

Nevertheless, the local tension in the sexual region remains and are abated in one of two ways: Either self-induced friction of the child, or - according to the customs of certain primitive people -old women quietly lay their hands on the testicles of young boys and old men on the vulvas of little girls, holding them thus for some time.

Every irritation of the sex organ, whether direct or indirect, increases the tension in the body. Children can not diminish their bodily tension by masturbation, because the palms of their hands and their sex organs do not differ in the quality of their radiation.

Among the Melanesian Islanders a girl who has not learned to abandon her immature sensations in the clitoris in favor of the awakening, mature feeling in the vagina, would lose all hope of marrying, as she would be considered inferior.

The damage done by masturbation does not arise from the effect of such action on the sex organs of the child, but from fears implanted in him of its injurious consequenses. There are three objections to masturbation: Too much masturbation has a weakening effect, sometimes even an exhausting one. Secondly: it increase bodily tension. Thirdly: As long as a person masturbates his sex life remains egocentric, and he remains immature.

Just as a child has to learn to control his bodily functions during the first three years of his life, so, during puberty, must he try to control increasing pressure in the awakening sex organs. If they learn to control their sex impulses now they will have laid the groundwork for the mastery of the problem of self-control in all its phases throughout their life.

Experiments with a young couple in love:

During the course of these experiments, it was ascertained that if the couple did not lie naked for half an hour or longer, in close physical contact, kissing and caressing, but, instead starting intercourse immediately, the strange radiation did not radiate from the body of the girl; nor did sparks fly between the two lovers after when they stood near each other afterwards, even though the sex union lasted less than 27 minutes, which we had come to think was necessary to eliminate these phenomena.

Every intercourse lasting less than 27 minutes induced an urgent desire, in both, for a repetition of the sex act. But if this desire was fulfilled by another too-brief act, both became nervous and irritated. The tension in their bodies became stronger with each intercourse of brief duration. On the other hand, intercourse lasting half an hour or more was followed by an entire relaxation from nervous tension; and the desire to repeat the sex act did not renew itself for five or six days, sometimes not for a week, yet the couple's feeling of love towards each other increased and they were extremely happy.

Their feelings of relaxation and happiness set in, even after a short intercourse, if the husband did not withdraw his penis from the vagina after his ejaculation, but instead, remained there for half an hour, even in an unerected state, giving his full and undisturbed attention to the contact.

They found that a sex union of half an hour's duration induced deep satisfaction for both for five days; one lasting an hour satisfied them for a week; an intercourse lasting two hours brought contentment for two weeks. This same lasting relaxation was also produced by prolonged bodily contact, without sex relaton.

Very instructive is the sex life of young girls among some South Sea Islanders. At the time of puberty she leaves her home to another hut, where she sleeps with four boys of her choice, six months with each boy. After these two years she marries the boy who has given her the greatest relaxation. These marriages lasts a lifetime without infidelity. They usually have intercourse not oftener than every five day. On other nights they sleep together, body to body without contact between the sex organs. Preparation for sex union takes at least half an hour. They embrace, kiss and bite each other, untill both are electrified. But never does a man touch the clitoris of his mate. (A matured woman should have entirely given up the sensations of the clitoris, which are characteristic of a child. After puberty these sensations are normally consentrated in the vagina.) When the sex act begins they lie motionless for at least half an hour, sometimeslonger,before they start any movements. After the climax they continue to lie together for a long time.

Their first rule is total relaxation and freedom from pressure or strain. The man does not lie over his mate and deprive her the power of movement, also to avoid stimulation of the clitoris. After the preparation when full sex union is reached no no more tender caresses is allowed. All the attention, all the electric streams have to flow fully and undisturbed to the sex organs.

On all the other nights, without sex union, they lie close together, naked body to naked body, and find themselves deeply relaxed in the morning. On these nights they do not caress or kiss each other, as that is a prelude to sexual intercourse.

Sometimes they lie with their heads at opposite ends of the sleeping mat, the two open pairs of legs fitted together like pinchers, in such a way that the sex organs come into the closest contact without penetration of the vagina. In this position they sleep together when no sexual intercourse is intended.

In karezza the only thing renounced is the ejaculation of the man. Physical union is complete, prolonged and motionless. In half an hour a sort of superlative delight sets in. It is nature rewarding one a thousandfold for supreme self control. It lasts for hours. Then the two falls asleep in a refreshing dreamless sleep. After such complete relaxation it takes time to recharge the bodies. Therefore karezza can only be practiced successfully once in one to three weeks.

The bio-electricity discharged from the cells of two bodies during the prolonged love-making and stored up in the skin, has flowed to their sex organs where the two kinds of bio-electricity, of different potentials, meet and neutralize each other. As they are neutralized the electrical tension in the two bodies cease and full relaxation sets in.

A persons happiness depends on coming in contact with an individual whose electrical radiations complement his own.; That the tension of a negatively charged man can find its outlet only through contact with an positively charged woman- one to whose wave length his wave length is attuned. In the exchange of radiation between two lovers lies a satifaction more delightful and profound than in the sex act itself.

The measurable electricity in the body reaches its greatest intensity in the genitals, but that does not mean that the amount of electricity from innumerable small sources cannot exceed that from one single stream, however strong. The author believes that these small streams can can flow directly to each other and achieve equalization by mere bodily contact. without sexual union. This exchange induces a sense of delight that endures for days rather than for two or three hours.

The more a person can relax another from the tension induced in him by the electrical streams the more that person is desired by the other and more passionate is their mutual love.

A couple had an ecstatic experience of karezza, but after 7 hours they felt suffocated. They took a shower and could continue.

If a couple's love for each other is not well founded the karezza method will not work. To learn to change from the customary sensations of ejaculation and orgasm, both of which have to entirely be prevented, to the sensations accompanying the union of the body's electrical streams, is a task suitable only for very strong and determined characters. A sexual relationship entirely devoted to karezza is unsuited to the avarage healthy man and woman. Our task here on earth is to create. The tension produced by the electrical power within us is the driving force which makes creation possible. The sexual happiness possible through karezza is the strongest proof yet to available that orgasm is not essential for sexual happiness,that the exchange of bio-electricity is more essential and can be combined with orgasm.

The reason the vagina must be moist is also because water is a good conductor of electricity.

If a woman will abandon the half satifaction of clitoris orgasm she can eventually learn the deep, mature satifaction coming from the orgasm brought about by stimulation of the vagina and the tip of the uterus. Granted, such women will go through a sexual dead period, while losing their accustomed sensation, and before gaining the right one, but a few weeks of consentration, patience and willpower, will bring an abundant reward.

Only by lying in a perfectly relaxed position as the one described can the husband hope to hold back his orgasm long enough to permit satisfaction for his wife:

Position. After the pre-liminary love-play, the partners should occupy the following position which permits perfect freedom, of movement as well as complete absence of muscular effert, and avoid stimulation of clitoris. The wife first lies on her back with her knees raised so that they touch her breasts. The husband lies on his right side to the left of her, turned towards her in such a way that his left leg lies above of his right leg. In this position he puts both of his legs under both of her thighs while his wife lets her legs fall over his left hip. In so doing he has to move the upper part of his body away from her body until he lies in right angles to her. She is still on her back lengthwise of the bed while he is still lying on his right side, but crosswise of the bed. Most couples prefer that the man places his left leg between her thighs, so forcing her right leg down on his right leg, while his right leg remains under the buttocks of his wife. Simplyfied version: The husband lies at the left side of his wife, turns to her and places his left leg between her legs so their sex organs are in closest contact.

At this point every kiss and caresses on other parts of the body should cease, in order that all the awakening bio-electrical streams may flow undisturbed towards the sex organs. In this position it does not matter if the penis is in erection or not, the important thing is that its tip should touch the mucosa of the inner lips at the vagina's entrance. After half a hour, when the full exchange of the radiation between the two individuals is established, the penis usually becomes erected and can enter the vagina. Until the man has learned to hold back his ejaculation the position outlined above should usually be maintained at least half an hour, outside the vagina. Complete sex union, in which the tip of the penis penetrates the vagina so deeply that it touches the entrance of the uturus, as it should do in perfect intercourse, then follows. This lasts usually half an hour, though this time can be lengthened to hours if the couple are motionless.

They should train themselves to be completely aware of the sensations of their sex organs and also of the flow of electricity they receive from their partner. They should not permit their thoughts to wander to other subjects and interrupt the flow to the sex organs. Every cell of the body should be relaxed. Every tension serves to block radiation. The more relaxed the cells are, the more easily can they discharge radiations.

As a rule, a well performed sex act, one in which full sex union lasts half an hour, should not be repeated more than once in five days. When sex union lasts for an hour, repetition in a week's time is indicated, when it lasts for two hours the interval should be two weeks. The batteries of the body needs to be recharged.

Too frequent intercourse forces cells in the testicles to consentrate more on the production of sperm cells than hormones. An organism without hormones has no animation or energy. In the end it leads to exhaustion, frustration and disgust with the sex act which includes resentment against the person who has aroused his desire. This is a typical picture of the end of many a passionate love affairs.

How can women attain relaxation when the natural method of natural bodily contact is denied them? Some can find outlets in their activities.To give them female hormones, as is commonly done, can may only increase the tension. The most successfull means combines a warm bath with a vaginal douche used 15 minutes while consentrating on the outflow of radiation from her body, taken every other night before retiring, after orgasm or not. Water is a conductor of energy. The woman should go straight to bed afterwards.

Findings of Wilhelm Reich:

Feelings of pleasure on any skin area are accompanied by an increase in bio-electrical chargein that area. Feelings of displeasure are accompanied (anxiety, fear, irritation) by a decrease of electrical charge. Pleasure draws the charge to the outside of the body, displeasure draws the bio-electricity back to the interior of the organism.

It seems that the bio-electrical charge aroused in the prelude of the to intercourse does not flow back into the same organism, but instead it flows between the two partners, each "neutralizes" is some way the bio-electrical charge of the other.

Over-exitement in the sex glands increases the functions of the pituatary and thyroid glands, resulting in extreme psychic irritability. Hyperfunctioning of the thyroid even leads to visual or accoustic hallucinations. Hyperfunctioning of the pituatary glands stimulates an individual to extreme activity and which sometimes leads to uncontrollable pugnacity.

If a couple will follow the essential parts of our requirements only, these are: Prolonged sex contact, (even after orgasm and ejaculation) for at least half an hour, with full consentraton on the sex act and sleep in a double bed, in close bodily contact.

Twice a week let the couple assume a locked pincher position in bed for at least an hour.

According to Dr. K. Davis, who studied the sex desire of 2000 women, maximum desire were always noted within a period of two days before to one week after menstruation.

The best method to insure animation and vitality is a well performed, regular sex life. It stimulates the production of sex hormones and relaxes the bodily tension.

The stages of the soul by Abdu’l-Bahá

The stages of the soul

a. The commanding soul—the soul that commands to evil — is preoccupied with the trivialities of this world, and is in fatuated with evil and ephemeral desires.

b. The blaming soul — which becomes aware of the depths of its degradation and of its remoteness from its true goal. It awakes to a perception of its state, is filled with regret and blames itself for the depths of perversity and error to which it has sunk.

c. The inspired soul —as it rises from its lowly condition, the soul comes to understand those things that kept it abased and those thing which will lead to its elevation. It becomes averse to those things that perish and to incline towards those things that endure. It is termed the inspired soul for it is inspired as to that which on the one hand leads to depravation and on the other to righteousness.

d. The assured soul — this is the stage at which the soul is in remembrance of its Lord and sees the signs of God in the creation. As a result it is assured in its faith, its turmoil and unrest is calmed, it has quenched its thirst, soothed its torment; it has changed its darkness to light and unloaded its burdens.

e. The accepting soul — reaches a station of submission and contentment, leaving behind its searching and neediness. It entrusts its affairs to God and is content with whatever God may decree for it. This is a happiness that is not followed by sadness. There remains no will, no rest , no motion, no destiny nor any fate except in God.

f. The accepted soul — in this state all- encompassing blessings and mercy reach it. Insofar as it has  risen and left behind its passions and accepted the decree of its Lord, it becomes accepted in the sight of God, and in its state of nothingness, it is approved by its Creator.

g. The perfect soul — here it is characterized by divine perfections and comprised of godly attributes. It thus becomes the focal point of inspiration and the dawning-place for the Divine effulgences.

h. The soul of the Kingdom of God (Mal ak út)— here the soul confirms in its reality the profession of Divine Unity and establishes in its essence the sign of detachment. It attains to everlasting life and eternal living. It takes pleasure from delights the like of which no eye has seen nor any ear heard .

i. The soul of the Realm of Divine Command (Jab arút)— this is a stati on far ab ove the unde rs tand ing of the minds of men, for this stati on is created out of the elements of power, authority, sovereignty, omnipotence, and freedom and nothing that has limitations or pluralities has any resemblance to it. Here the soul becomes aware of the secrets of hidden and invisible realities. This is the ultimate goal in the world of creation .


From ‘Abdu’l-Bahá’s Commentary on the Quránic Verses Concerning the Overthrow of the Byzantines: The Stages of the Soul by Moojan Momen file:///C:/Users/Leah%20Wilhelmsen/Downloads/lights2_momen_byzantines%20Complete%20.pdf

Religious poems

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The only light was on a grave.

I searched the soul of a body dead;

My link to heaven

where young women said:

You can bring light where there`s darkness,

we can`t do that here

where light`s everywhere.

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The only times I'm pure

is when I press my two halves together

and cry while I emerge to the sky

and when I laugh so hard

I think I shall die.

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I am drowning in my own tears,

dried out without You near,

bathing with me in the Great ocean.

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I am a slave

of the skin I try to save

That God suddenly

can tear away.

How can I in heaven be?

The skin joins the scenery.

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I kneel down

and close my eyes.

Look for His face.

It melts into mine

As through

a mirror; His eyes

I see myself,

the lies.

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I want to make a lovely

light of death;

A stripe of darkness

in a mausoleum,

changes in the colours

I roam

to closest my body

in storm.

I regret in the horizon

of humbleness;

The changes of clothes;

My death row.

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I feel so green by the thought of you, God,

even though I am out of the woods now.

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God is soft and sensitive as a tongue.

Hard and sharp as teeth.

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If you want to be saint-like, be humble!

Then you will be open to the highs and lows,

the outer and inner in perfect balance, like a cross.

No longer full of yourself.

Pride is in the way, but you don't have to crush it.

You can melt it away with My love.

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God has said seek and you shall find.

Some people dig for dirt. They will surely find it

because the world is full of it. Others seek diamonds.

Both are real, but dirt can't reflect the light of truth.

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If you neglect love

when communicating with another

you make them feel inferior.

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If you aren't prepared to serve the Lord

you aren't fit for heaven.

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Jesus said to me:

Suffering is for the sake of wisdom.

Love honours you that way.

Listen to the voice inside you whispering;

Let yourself out there in the woods

where I can be found in all living.

Let yourself out there where you belong,

in My heart, where I very slowly will nourish you.

I have eternity to feed you spoon for spoon.

Cold little you I will take into my great warm heart.

I miss you.

Jesus continues:

I wander from house to house

I can't find an opening.

The strictly forbidden rumour about mankind

is the secret of my soul:

You reflect me. You see me as nobody else does.

Let's talk for a while about suffering.

Have you all forgot its purpose?

Have you forgot the frame it is for My love?

How can I love someone who is content? Tell me!

I love you and I will wander here for eternity

​until I have collected everybody

into my heart. Know that!​

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Nothing at earth is great. No mountain,

but the love between Gods creatures.

When experiencing love all seems great.

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We are all created, but not all yet born,

like a seed in the dirt that almost suffocate

before the shell cracks.

When the plant rise above the earth,

feel the air and see the sun

it is born into heaven.

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Love each other!

And know God to know how!

That's all life is about.

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May these regretful tears

soften me so much

I am never harsh again.

My fears of man is gone.

God fill the void with love

so I don't get too bold.

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The greatness of Gods love

is unfathomable to me

so He's pouring drops of honey.

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The reason why I don't feel valuable is

I don't value what is valuable.

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I'm walking towards God,

but the Wailing wall is blocking the way.

When my ass-end is removed, however

I will melt into Him who backs me up.

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My womb is full of love-seed.

It's you and Me, God says.

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When God dwelt 

He cut through the bible with a knife of gold

through all the pages and further down

into the flesh of my throat.

It bled a lot, but I came alive.

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Death awaits

A skeleton stands in my belly

and hammers the last nails in my coffin.

I beg him: Can't it wait now that I want to live?

But, no! The coffin must be ready 

to catch me when I fall

and send me into flames

where what I have against people

will drip off me like tar.

Later the coffin will soar into heaven

and hopefully no more dislikes is left then.

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I entreated God:

I lack respect for people!

Then Jesus bowed down and showed it to me;

Respect and honour for my suffering 

in a fragment of light I now can feel

and show everybody.

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Behind my broken heart 

= a terracotta vase

grows a pink lily.

Only petals can feel

snow crystals melt 

and dribble into the receptacle.

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I let love out of the cage when you prayed

where it hit your divine love

and sprang up where you prayed to.

I followed along to the tree of unity

where a nightingale sang:

A selfless servant isn't better than a needy beggar.

Everyone is an angel in the light.

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God exists.

That is obvious, but even though most people don't believe it,

they still expect to see the most sublime from others,

so I must prove it through every action.

God exists 

even though one shouldn't expect the slightest sign of it

when most people live in ego-hell.

People will complain as long as you are not perfect

and if you became perfect they would complain enviously.

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The crucified one sank down 

to the bottom of the ocean

in the shape of a cross

and etched into a soft, red star.

¤

You say you don't believe in a God, invisible.

Only infants are so attached to the breast and the milk

they don't see to who it belongs.

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Everything is from God,

but usually I'm too low-browed to see it.

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Languishing

I spent time creeping in.

It takes time hauling myself out again with my arms

while the legs are hanging back in the mud.

I don't see light in the end. The darkness is beige.

I'm not raised by the hair anymore. That's ripped off.

Light is only the knuckles where the mud is smeared off

on my journey down here.

When will the sun show up again 

and dry me up so I can brush this mud off me?

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Love is so patience it can only be in infinity

and it is so great it can only fit into endlessness.

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The tear enlarge the letters in the Word.

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Jesus: I don't care about your flaws. I care about you!

You come to me, getting rid of one thing after the other in your way.

You are not going to hell or back to earth again somewhere,

you are coming to the warmth I wrap around you.

In the light I see you exemplary.

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Trapped

There is no place to go

so I give up my life to God

and by that I am lifted

until the Lord stands right above me.

In the moment of expectation 

time stands still before He reveals a light.

I stick my tentacles into it

and in the very same glimpse

I slip into the life in the body,

but now to my core.

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I crawl through a hose of pain and come to see

God flushes through it to the ocean

while Jesus runs before me.

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Awakening

I'm the spirit above the water

and it reacts to what I shed light upon.

I'm on watch while the mind and body are sleeping

and I awaken them by incorporating the faculties of the soul

that creeps with see-through arms underneath the ribs

so the heart shaped soul get a grip by the chest.

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Exorcism

They lay their hands on me.

Water drizzle down in mine.

One has put his cold ones on my temples.

Within them blood vessels burst into air

and the sizzling blood turns out in his hands

to be the struggles of the flesh only.

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A misdeed is the expression 

of a lack of something divine.

When I no longer wish anything for myself

misdeeds leaves me. 

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You don't have to hide what is the matter or let it hinder you.

There is only one way; The one between you and God.

Surely God then wants to help clear the way between you.

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Green trees keels over

the wet soil of the woods

around a grassy hole 

with a golden light at the bottom.

I want to crawl down and see.

God sits down there

with a sharp smile and a flame 

handing gold bars over to me.

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My faith in God in the darkness

illuminated the body of Christ

so Jesus teared off a whole leg, happily

and let it descend to me.

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When I dive deep down to a tangle

and ask God to untie it

heavenly creatures comb it out

with a single streak.

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God didn't want 

me to think on my own

so He dragged me down 

so low I no longer could.

As a fallen He knew 

I would cling to Him

and as blank as it made me

I received easily 

the answers He gave.

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Of course I'm twisted.

How can I stand straight on my own two feet

when I got no support?

There are several types of crutches.

I'm not steady with or without them

so let me fall and leave me there

God can give me the foundational truth.

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I slide down the path of blood.

A stream after Jesus and His followers.

The more martyrs the easier and faster it goes 

for others to follow.

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If the love from humans didn't fail

I may never have yearned for the divine.

So I should stop complaining 

about others shortcomings.

The Absolute has me.

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I found You.

Hearkened to Your heartbeats.

You beat me down with hammer blows.

Your big heart crushed my outer heart

and won me.

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Our Father!

Where did you learn to Father us?

Mother earth taught me,

who kindly showed me in her.

She lives and breathes Me

so I can direct the souls in her.

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God came into my body.

I felt His life and saw the golden light 

flowing in the mirror of my heart.

My father's face looked down in it.

He appeared to be as playful as me. 

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Your will is like a calm ocean of light,

irresistibly soft, unlike ours

that demands futile toil.

As long as I cling to the world I strain myself

because God on the other side tries to loosen me,

suck this dust to Himself.

¤

The tears come from sensing You.

They shed like my skin,

run down off me.

You mark every tear on my cheek

as a mirror

for Your light and face.

¤

I weep to cleanse me with tears

so the soot from the purgatory washes away

and I can see the sun shine in the mirror again.

¤

I came to You naked, chalky-white in the dark.

You folded me into Your black cape

and carried me close to Your chest up to the light;

Your mighty Kingdom.

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When God is dismissed like the root

and the protecting leaves of the cauliflower

what remains is a cabbage head.

¤

My red labia minora,

is bathing in the ocean.

They are the roots 

of the flower in my chest.

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I died, but didn't run to heaven like I thought I would,

but fell silent in the dark alone,

afraid of condemnation from those in the light.

An angel came and lifted me up and carried me

through the midst of a church floor in heaven

to female servants of God, of which some where nuns.

My shortages were invisible here. 

They were left as nothingness in the darkness at earth.

Here was neither a trace of condemnation. 

They worked in unity, not by duty, 

but by the joy of performing God's will.

¤

Jesus bowed down in the ocean

with a thorn crown on his head

and swiped through the deepest abyss.

When he arose from the enlightened sea

each thorn on the crown held a pearl.

¤

You attract everything you fear

because God wants you to overcome it.

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If Gods light doesn't shine on you

it shines on the other side; Within,

because like the sun it always shines.

¤

God told me:

Be a daughter of gold

and spin your heart around Me!

¤

A rose grows slowly inside me.

It unfolds with the sound of blueberries 

between my teeth

and the juice dribbles into His mouth

that laps up its good bye eternally.

¤

Judgement is struck down

by prayer.

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When God wants to detach me He pulls me hard.

It has an harrowing effect on me,

but only before I'm caught up by blissfulness.

I don't need any support on the outside.

I can dance freely on my given path.

The path in You, God, who sustains me.

¤

You shall love the Lord with all your heart,

soul, mind and strength, we are told,

but God wants me to love Him with the flesh also.

God is the most intelligent lover.

¤

Tribulation breaks me out of prison.

¤

Nothing's the matter.

It's God that has a hold on me.

He has dragged me out far-reaching

to make me able to see beyond the tangible.

¤

The nature of the mind is light 

in its foundation.

When thoughts are acknowledged

they dissolve 

like black written words crumble away

on white paper.

¤

The butterflies wants to say good night.

Gods wants me back in His corset

and lull me into His sleep 

which is the death of me.

I want you back, son of God,

who punctured, dismembered

and broke me out of the prison 

with loose screws.

¤

I can raise you up from My home down here.

Look down in the grave. I lie there in hiding somewhere,

turning stones until you come.

We will scurry together to gems and gold.

Wear jewellery around the neck 

until we find peace in the outline of it

and bleach every colour to white.

¤

Some people say there can't be a God

because a God wouldn't allow evil

to cause people to suffer

but because God doesn't accept evil

He throw light on it

so we become aware and can stop it.

¤

He doesn't regard my weaknesses as a part of me,

but something I need to deal with and overcome.

¤

Everything is unveiled as divine

in a spiritual perspective.

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We must suffer at earth 

even though we are created in Gods image

because we are not yet born.

As the spiritual qualities grows 

we are born into heaven.

The reason while people feel 

that earth is not their home is because it's true.

It is the home of the body only.

The birth canal has the same channel of light

people see when their soul leaves the body.

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The divine light is for everybody.

As human beings our duty is 

to overcome our resistance against it

so we become receptive to its influence.

When the amount of light from heaven increases

the resistance towards it increases simultaneously

because the light pushes the darkness aside

so it compresses more and more.

¤

The grass is green and has flowers on

and the sky is low.

I want to go to the end of the world

where there is only sky.

There people has cheerful legs, deep minds

and encircle their hearts with aquamarine.

¤

I'm a drop on my way to the ocean.

As long as fear doesn't freeze me to one place

I'm running by the power of the wind.

¤

A natural human is sour,

but with added heavenly fruit

they become good and sweet.

¤

A cumin leaf 

buzzed down to me

and spun heaven together 

with my inner nerve.

¤

God lives through me.

Death cease to exist 

when God is more for me

than I am against Him.

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The narrow path is named humbleness.

Human encounters requires empathy

to not lose track

and with the sword of truth 

we must cleave through the content of the mind,

receive wisdom in contemplation

because we are either on the lit path

or on one of the dark sides.

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I was laid waste in a dark grave.

At the same place as my dad.

He was high, aroused by praise.

I was low, weeping the soil wet.

The light is spine erect.

We must stand with faith, hope and mettle

to show the light we then can receive

and claim Gods cause.

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The door that reveals the light

is the darkness.

Remember to pray.

You are the door 

that opens up more easily

anointed with blessed oil.

If you burn down the door

you become one with the light.

The body is just a frame

that stabilises the forces

that long for it.

Open the door 

or the forces will sweep you off the floor

because they haste to the light for recognition, 

but need your participation.

¤

The heavenly beings

who answers my questions to God

do not care if I thank them or not.

They get just as excited about the answers as me.

¤

Sorry and thanks are magical words

like two bells on the same string.

A string to heaven where an angel choir sings 

each time the bell rings.

¤

A fly that flew to my foot

carried a message from heaven

on its wings.

¤ 

She is a child of the night

where she hears the bird sing 

in the lucid peace.

She sing in the day

with clear voice

peace into her soul.

¤

I didn't know I was upset

before I flew up to the ceiling

while my body was sleeping.

To be able to land again

I had to express my hidden anger

so I smashed a dresser and swore. 

Then I slowly sank down to the floor 

and never slipped out of my body again.

¤

How can love come forth

when the life force that paves the way for it

are hindered by shame?

¤ 

When I was completely bare

vulnerable, like a baby

overwhelmed and scared,

all water flowed off from me,

but as soon as the old disappeared

new water came to uphold me.

¤

If you give up understanding life 

how can you find meaning in it?

¤

We are created, but not yet born.

Like a seed in the dirt that almost suffocate

before it cracks 

into a plant that can rise above the earth,

feel the air and see the sun.

¤

I can be fully enlightened now, if I want to.

God is prepared to send down as much light as I want,

but I hang back in fear of the darkness that comes with it.

¤

Nothing at earth is great, no mountain,

but the love between created beings.

When experiencing this love, everything seems great.

¤

It's all up to God,

but it is we who decide what will happen.

We are constantly served.

¤

There is really nothing to be achieved here.

You're not here to do something great,

but to get to know the great divine.

¤

Do not think you have the answer already. 

No matter how similar a situation looks

to one you have experienced before, it is different

so be humble and keep your mind open.

You will get the answer when you need it,

but only then.

¤

My poetry had stalled

when I altered by a logarithm

that sent me to heaven like a magic spell

and poured down words like rain.

¤

If you're not prepared

to serve the Lord

you are not fit for heaven.

¤

I feel so green by the thought of you, God,

even though I am out of the woods now.

¤

I will keep on going from knot to knot

and beg God to join my exploration,

and then express the outright explanation.

¤

To return to God

is to show the butt to the world 

and be born into heaven, head first.

¤

See all the light that falls down in storm.

The young girls fingers run through it all.

I can't measure Your threshold,

but I can bear it. 

It is light as snowflakes.

¤

What distinguishes a saint from the average Joe

is how much they love God.

¤

Mary came to me and said: All mothers are one. 

We all suffer when our child is treated unjustly.

¤

Therese from Lisieux found a quick way to God

when the elevator was invented.

I get quickly clean in the washing machine.

¤

I asked God to help me not get upset so easily.

Then a wind came with a spirit within

and said I ought not to care about pettiness

because it doesn't belong to the souls.

I can get upset when I don't get my way,

but I'm not created to focus on my will,

but to love people as a whole.

¤

God is you and me

and His favourite is everybody

so surely He will supply

all our needs.

¤

If I compare myself with God

I'm nothing.

If I connect with God

I'm everything.

¤

She wanders like ash in water

and cry out for her Saviour.

Many has wondered what it means to be a Christian.

She is a holly in the thicket.

An angel only seen in glints in mens' eyes.

She didn't ingest fir and bushes,

but those who didn't know the way

when the night came

she ate as foliage.

No one knew the way

so she was only in the woods.

Up from the moors

fir came with sharp needles

and pointed out the clouds for her.

The clouds that consumed her  

she consumed in the spinal marrow.

She didn't know anything else. Didn't think.

Just let her self be led by a wind stronger than herself.

Her body was almost gone.

The wind had taken over it

and she was naked as a vibrating leaf.

Under her hair a thread of light connected her to God

and in the hour of transformation 

she showered the others with the water from heaven.

¤

If I only love the supreme

my love has no gravity.

¤

The door is the darkness that reveals the light.

Remember to pray because you are the door

that opens more easily anointed with blessed oil.

If you burn the door down you will be one with the light.

The body is just the frame that stabilises the powers

that wants to come to it.

If you don't open the door yourself

they will rush you off your feet.

They want to reach the light

to be reflected and acknowledged,

but needs your participation.

¤

It is judgement day.

Those who knows me the best

are my judges. 

Not God. Not Jesus,

but my closest family members

enumerates everything 

I have done that upset them

since I was born

and concludes 

I am evil.

¤

Jesus has condemned me because I have condemned many,

but God is with me so it's a blessing really 

while He is holding me down and shows me how terrible I have been.

In my despair I feel lucky because I think He believes there is hope for me

by showing me all this 

and as close as He is now He shows me the way to bliss easily.

¤

God warns us about sin and hell 

time and time again

because He really doesn't want to see us suffer.

¤

God doesn't send people to hell.
People descend by the gravity of their guilt.

¤

Those who resist God say

they don't take orders from anyone,

but God don't command us He gave free will. 

He is guiding and His will is the same as ours,

if they only knew themselves.

¤

Just hours after the baptism 

where I sank down in heavenly water,

the sun in heaven shone at me

and the angels were watching happily

while I was crying scared of drowning

I descended once more 

through a channel by my left eye

to the desert under the earth

where it was dark and serene, 

no one to see or hear  

but God who whispered behind my left ear

while He showed me how everything is one 

and how it all begun.

¤

God said to me:

Flirting is not ok.

Approach peoples hearts,

not their appetites.

¤

Mary said to me:

Every mother is one.

We all suffer when our child

is treated unfairly.

¤

When I feel Thee my tears shed

and glide down with my skin.

You shine a light on the tears on my cheek.

In each of them I see Your face.

¤

I am a candle God ignites

and melts by the fire,

but when I blend in, 

am in the wind,

or feel dejected and bend my neck

the flame is quenched.

¤

Ocean waves swept under my skin

and seeped out of my eyes.

We all feel the same water.

¤

I had just pondered if angel wings

are symbols or real

when an angel flew into my room

and wrapped his wings around me.

I felt inside them, large and pink

and found they were just love.

¤

I felt shut out from God 

so I asked Him what to do.

The following night while deep asleep 

I woke up to a light within

and saw these words

on a strip of paper descend: 

CLEAR THE WAY FOR ME IN YOU

¤

The world moves so slowly
it will vanish quickly.

It peaks like a steeple,

but is worth nothing.

Pierces my body bottom up
through my throat

and leaves a silver metal kippah

floating above my head.

¤

The pain of feeling worthless

deepens my desire to serve Thee,

but if Your mercy didn't reach me

I would remain broken and useless.

¤

I am an outcast

so how can I come close to anyone?

I have no standpoint, just hover between heads.

Only God knows me then, profoundly.

He is stirring up something I don't dare to express

that could have brought me back in.

¤

When there is nothing left to burn

hell will cease to exist 

and the soulless devils with it

who inflamed the burning hate.

God will blow the ashes out to infinity

so no trace of hell is left.

¤

After he made love to me

I saw a light and Jesus 

stood with open arms

with love so sweet;

White nectar dripping down to me

accompanied by tears so clear 

below.

¤

There is only Gods will 

and everything goes according to His plan.

Even though we are the choice makers

His divine light penetrates all creation

and we will submit to it sooner or later.

¤

All fears combined

can not withstand the face of God.

¤

God knows it is tough for us to endure this world

where the warmth and light emanating from the sun

doesn't hold the wisdom and love as above.

That is why He will recompense us to a great extent

when we finally are untied from this placement.

¤

Unbelievers

You may ask why some never see the light in this lifetime.

Some seeds may have been planted deep in the ground

or under a big rock it takes time to grow around.

¤

We develop spiritually like a seed with a desire

to reach through the soil to the air, warmth and light

because we suffer from lack of freedom, love and wisdom

by feeling trapped, like dead or in need of answers.

¤

God gives me hell at earth

to purify me for heaven.

¤

Only people discriminate.

The sun of God shines on every creature just the same.

It is only the amount we will receive that differs,

not His share of love

and the amount is up to us.

¤

It's only God and me.

Everything else is distractions

and clues at the same time

of what God has in store for us,

but I'm detached from all that now.

God and me is all I can see.

¤

I invited God to be with me

and expressed to Him my worry.

He sank His big head into mine

and spoke with His tongue in my mouth 

so His words became mine and convinced me

and my worry disappeared completely.

¤

My dad looked deeply 

interested in me,

unlike in reality.

When the vision disappeared

Jesus swiftly fled after it

and vanished.

¤

God grants us our daily bread

so we have the divine power

to perform satisfying good deeds.

¤

God created us to know Him

so we would partake in His divine qualities

and share them in wonderful deeds.

¤

After experiencing God

the world no longer matters

and if you ever were self occupied

you pop out and leave the space open

to let Gods love and wisdom through

because God is too amazing

to care about an illusion of your home

and an illusion of you.

¤

God takes utmost pity

on unbelievers who suffer

because faith in Him 

could have made it easier

for them to endure the pain.

Life is not painless for people of faith.

Faith just makes life easier to endure.

¤

To reach the smallest

the greatest Being

sends a path of light 

for them to walk on.

I am a small i

and the dot above it is love.

I reach out for it

until we are one;

A number one can count on 

and we become enlarged to an I.

God speaks in capital letters.

¤

The fire burning in my chest

is light on the other side

where I can enter

when I am completely purified 

from this world.

¤

I didn't come to the world to work,

but to adapt to the divine.

If I work out what's celestial

balance is attained.

¤

The dawning place

I didn't have to hold myself up.

When I lost grip

I sank down to a serene desert;

The dawning place 

the source ascends

and surrounds everybody.

¤

You pin me to the wall

and I creep under the threshold

into the rooms behind it

because you see me

and I want to see with your eyes

what I put the wall up against;

The oppression I wriggled out of

and screamed away 

so I can repose

with a spiritual power within,

coming in unimpeded

and uniting us in a sparkling darkness,

in the arms reaching far around me.

¤

When I feel You
my tears shed
and my skin too.

You illumine them
with grace.
In each tear
I see Your face.

​¤

The red glow 

from Gods fire

in the hair.

The spark through

the pores of the skin

from the bonfire.

The light

in the eyes

shines in the mirror.

​¤

Purification

Purifying water from God

runs under the skin

along high tension lines

which gives electric currents

to throw me over with.

This way these channels are opened:

Sentences without words

and tracks of occurrences
which are crushed in the wound as salt.

Then the water brings the grain
in streams to the eye
that stings only on the inside.

¤

When I received the power of the holy ghost

I walked up the mountain with my dad,

but then he walked away from me

and disappeared over the top.

I saw I was naken under my coat

and wondered if I should keep it open

or not. It was windy.

Then the holy ghost came behind me

and fastened the buttons down to my sex organ

where I felt his hand.

He lifted up the coat at the back

and entered me

and for every thrust I was filled with energy.

Before he climaxed I stopped the dream,

afraid I couldn't incorporate 

more energy

and was relieved the next morning

I had escaped it 

and wasn't highly aroused in reality.

I sat my feet down on the floor

and all the energy came back in my body!

I didn't know what to do. What misery! 

I let the body choose.

It pushed the opening of my vagina down

until it touched the ground

and the earth absorbed the energy,

but I'm not saying it never came back to me.

¤

The burning hell

The demons who stirred up hate

to nourish the flames

are finished and hell burns out

when there is nothing left to burn.

There will be no trace left of it

when God blows the ashes

into the infinite.

¤

How do I follow Your will, God, constantly?

Are you willing to sacrifice your life for humanity?

Suddenly I saw virgin Mary when Joseph came 

and said they had to leave everything behind

to bring Jesus into safety.

¤

When snow queen turned to God

He melted her frozen heart.

The water ran through her veins

and soon she cried them out.