Mr. Hubris
Cold you called me.
You were my only company, though.
Tore my heart apart and from bone
with the icicles from the stone heart you own.
despised for thorns,
but I don’t stand here for you to pick on me
so why get mad when my thorns stick thee?
The thorns are my darkness sticking out.
When you get too close they fasten you
like a captivating mirror
The unknown that scares you
and the shortcomings you blame on me.
I need my thorns for my fragile stem
from the desire that will pick me
and the rage that will take me.
When you take me out of the ground
Impressed
You were so impressed
you didn't disregard me,
but fought to get through to me
even though I was angry at you
and defended myself,
a beam pushed through my darkness
to my inner light.
I want to clear the water
from the land between us.
Show what gives rise to
what surrounds us
so we can always reach
each other.
I light a yellow candle
as if it's our fellow vandal.
I hope he shout as he burns
and dies as I blow it out.
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No understanding.
When I talk you talk what I say away.
When I open up you put up a wall.
When I'm optimistic you're skeptical.
You are no friend of mine.
I'm never gonna tell you what's on my heart again.
Because you don't want to understand,
but stand above me.
You never even try. You never ask my why and how.
You never ask me why I'm shy.
You want to see my body only.
Feel it and put your self in it.
Hide in me as if I'm empty,
so you don't have to see any.
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You look at the shadow-picture
with your back against the light.
You don't even see the contours of my body.
Just the shape of a thick, long jacket
and think my protection
against your coldness shows my true self.
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You're eating me.
Can not forgive,
can not digest,
so you keep on eating.
But I can digest,
I can forgive, so I grow,
while you are weakened,
under the burden of the guilt
you can not get rid of.
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You have a tripartite heart.
The scars between them
looks like a piece sign
when you look at it,
but seen from the outside
it is upside-down.
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Mr. Pretend he is normal
is so unusual.
No insight in any mind,
can not forgive and leave behind.
With no empathy to understand
creepy he cross the line
and act so crazy he blows my mind!
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You don't get me. You just ignore,
so I close the door.
You are no fun not taking me seriously
and don't value sincerity.
You've always had your door closed
so this is fair.
You have only care for your own despair.
But you keep on pounding
and try to force your self in,
but with only threats and no regrets
you'll burn out like a cigarette.
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A man who can't say sorry
is a poor man.
Your view is important to me
and melt my body away;
when my view don't matter to you?
I try to make you aware
by appearing more like air.
If you don't see my point then
I hope my bones get edgy enough
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I'm a living fish in my right element,
but just food in my husbands hands.
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Yes I get offended
when your words pierce my organs.
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He puts sticks in the wheels
and blames me when the bike doesn't move.
I remove them, but as soon as the bike rolls again
he put a new stick in. CPS feels sorry for him
and chase me with a stick.
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I created a way to be on the surface to be seen.
With you I can just be. Anyway you'll see.
That calms me.
I'm not used to be vulnerable with somebody.
I am used to scream to be heard by closed ears.
I don't need to fight with you who has let yourself
be beaten by love already.
I am defeated by your heartbeats within me.
The mask slips away. Too stiff to follow the movement.
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Pisces
I use my flamethrower on you
so your waters perhaps evaporates
and your two fish is in fear of suffocation,
because you are being fishy again;
With one fish towards me and the other against,
which is very irritating.
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If you have never experienced a heartbreak before
I understand you are just looking for fun
and with your approach to women
you will never experience it either.
Pretty sad really, because even though it hurts
you would experience a depth more interesting
than sex can ever be.
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Then you came and said:
but left me with the taste of your dick
I want to swallow me
and be digested in the spine.
Surrender to the bodys' dance
of love
undulating arms and legs
and melt into your tongue.
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I need you to wrap yourself around me
so I can unwrap myself
and lose face
when the world is a fist in mine
and I'm lost
and all I want to do is get into you.
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If you want to approach a woman
do it with your ears.
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Sometimes I feel so different
and distant from the men I talk to,
like a bird singing from a branch of a tree,
looking down at a bigger creature.
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I'm holding you in your cheeks
instead of kissing you
because your tongue has no end.
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You are smart, friendly.
Observing to see if you fit in somewhere;
An open mind you can stick your head into
or a soft body to sink against.
Soon you will just leave me
now that there is no mountain between us.
behind my face. Please be strong for me.
You are giving a coat to a girl who's hearts bleeding.
I'm so excited about you I'm dripping.
I think you feel it too cause it seems you are sipping.
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When I say I love you
I don't care that you don't say
I love you too,
because your actions do
and I can feel you do it too.
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Your head goes in between my legs
and up to my head
where my long hair embrace yours.
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Without any place for the foot I'm falling
for you and float until I hit the ground.
I should endure it; Be soft enough to not break
any legs I want to walk with
a man up the hills,
but before that happens I am laying in pieces,
waiting.
Sleep on a Sunday afternoon.
Soon I will be in bed with you.
I like the thought of you in my flat.
I will come home as a black cat.
I don't want to be just one anymore
I will be two, then everyone.
I will be the one with someone.
Please don't say you soon will be gone
Sleep on a Sunday afternoon.
Soon I'll be in bed with you.
Put your arms under my body.
Push me to curl up beside you
I'm so happy you take interest in me
and hopefully later I can rest in thee
Couldn't get a more difficult test
than to learn to love the best, the loves nest.
Sleep on a Sunday afternoon.
Soon I will be in bed with you.
Licking you all over your body
till you curl up beside me.
Stay till you know me enough to love me.
I will love you from the bottom of my feet.
Maybe some day I'll carry your son.
Please dont say you'll soon be gone.
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Fragile bridge
When we can only hear each others words
we make a bridge of them to connect.
If we feel fear the bridge will shake.
If the tension is high it can explode.
When the meaning of my words don't reach you
the abyss between us split us up.
If I can look you in the eyes, however
no bridge is necessary
and the only thing that can be fragile,
tense and shaking is our bodies,
but then I will wrap my arms and legs around you
and in the very same abyss we can be one.
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She is unlucky in love
who falls for one who blends it with games
and either cheat to win or are unafraid to loose.
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FACE ME!
FANCY ME!
FEEL ME!
FILL ME!
FUCK ME!
FEED ME!
FREE ME!
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I was the air you fantasised in
and carried too far away.
When I pointed at ethics
you stopped so I fell.
You never picked me up after that
and I couldn't find you anywhere.
You were back in your stuffy atmosphere.
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He asks if he can enter
even when I have invited him
to come to my house
and opened the door for him,
but by the entrance of the most holy
he goes right in.
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Don't take them to heart, the temple of truth,
which is too deep and free for these glib, sticky prejudices
that is only suggestions from an upset state of mind
whose only value is they reveal I don't understand,
but can't wait to.
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I let them abuse me sexually because if I had put up a fight
and they refused to stop it would mean they deliberately raped me
and that would be unbearable for me.
They are like thieves
who don't see enough value in girls
to ask before they take.
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You walked after me into my room,
pulled down my pants
and forced yourself into me.
Your body so big, your heart so cold
I froze. If you left a seed it was just me.
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My arousal went up,
down through my teeth