I was born and imprisoned
to free myself so I could liberate
those who arrested me.
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They didn't raise me.
I became the lowest of the low.
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InabilityMum
You become so happy to see me
because you think I'm looking at you.
because you have spewed
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Angel tears runs down
soft, round cheeks from big eyes.
A beldam had hissed bitterly.
Tiny steps on the pavement
with lumpy shoes.
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You were under bitter water
when I stretched my hands after you.
You pulled yourself up with them
and dragged me down simultaneously.
Your insults speared my belly
like poisonous spears.
I tried to spew up the poison,
while I was ravenous for your affection.
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Mum rebuked.
I puked.
and my emotions freeze to my flesh.
I need you, but you don't nurture me.
Just let me down to my sickbed
with words cold and heavy.
Unless they are like yours
you tolerate no move,
but out of sight you don't care what I do.
Happiness is strangled in these dark rooms.
Craziness can fill the sphere,
but nothing can bloom.
I have to shake it off to God
who burns it with His wisdom;
The crazy thoughts, the dirt from you;
Such dark, dumb criticism.
Don't you know the cause is degradation?
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You couldn't put up with me
because you never put yourself in my shoes
and you didn't get me.
You kept seeing you.
You never held me
so I had to cling
You didn't stand up for me.
You looked down on me.
so I frayed.
You only know debasement.
If I am to starve myself
until it shows how little you can see of me
I would only be a porous skeleton,
you see right through, as if I was air.
I want you to be able
to see me behind the surface,
but because you can't
I have to decompose my body.
I know you can not interpret this,
but if I use words instead you won't listen
and if I show emotions you feel no sympathy.
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To scrub away scorched scraps from a life
out of a pot with steel brush and knife.
She looked like a hag with burning rage
when I scraped and scraped
and she thought I was the devil itself
when I hacked the evil out.
How can I change my eating pattern
when you don't wish the natural for me;
To be alive or dead?
Therefor I live in limbo
crammed in between two walls
as the isolating filling material.
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How can I not get insulted
when your word-arrows
penetrates my organs?
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I'm not in your path.
I have my own
so you don't have to shove me
in the ditch.
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Your stuffed doll
Scorned I gnawed over the knots
to undo the threads you had tied me with
and get rid of all the rubbish
you had stuffed me with.
You called me unseemly and purl,
but I'm not the costume
you tailored too tight.
she reveals she was never thankful
by jabbing her child with a shepherds crook
when it expressed itself. The air went out of it
and only the skin on the ground remained.
Dear mother, enemy,
my shadow you carried
until I was freed
from servility.
My son
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A glowing lump of wax is growing in me
to a black pointed mountain spearing the ice.
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My baby is the feeling
after making love.
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You meet me with pollen
falling heavily through the sunlight
and down on the moist ground.
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Every unexpected sound
pushes forth the absence of you
and it is so empty without you here
you fill the whole world around me.
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The little, dead bird on the pavement
is as stripped of meat as I am of yours.
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I wander the streets looking for you
even though you are miles away
because there is nothing I can do to see you.
This restlessness reminds me of
my biggest heartache.
Just the sight of a frowning face
brings forth pity.
If only I had a shock absorber man
whose stomach I could lie upon
I could free my tears
that are drowning me.
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I feel your deep sorrow.
That ocean is the only thing
connecting us now.
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A crow walked outside the house hollering
as if it was proclaiming
somebody has treated you and me unfairly
and made us very unhappy.
Mum started crying when she heard
what you had dreamt,
but I will not jump from the roof.
I don’t want to wait more than necessary
to be able to hold you again.
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Without your voice here
this house has become
a contemplative monastery.
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It is raw outside
so the best is to in your snug bed lie.
Our pet sleeps under the blanket with me
while you have to sleep with your enemy!
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To have a son
evened out the loss of my dad
as a child.
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You are so soft
that you are unbreakable.
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The woman's wounds
gives blood to the child.
Suffering is the price
for the gift of love.
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